How I Feel?

Right Now, I Feel Like I’m Being Hold Back By Something. I Guess It’s The Fact That I Miss The Old Days, When I Would Spent The Holidays Or Weekend With My Immediate Or Extended Family. Back Then I Would Be Over My Aunt’s Or Uncle’s House Almost Every Other Month. We Would Have A Nice Family BBQ, Birthday Party’s, Sleepover's, And Another Party For No Reasons. We Would Also Share These Events With Family Friends. We Would Play Games Or Talk About Something Else... Like The Past!

I've Been Alive For Nealy 16 Years Now, And I Met More Of My Father’s Side Of The Family (Through My Grandmother) over Jamaica in 2008.... 2 Years Ago! I Felt Awkward Because Those Relatives Are Around My Age Or Older, And I Don’t Have That Family Relationship With Them; Every time They Would Reminisce, I Felt Left Out Only Since I Just Recently Met Them; I Have Nothing To Share With Them. I Mean All Those Years I Could Have Met The Rest Of My Family, And My Father Chose For Me To Meet Them When I Was 14 Years Old...Lol (I Ain't Mad, Just To Tell You!) And The Funny Thing Is, He Goes To Jamaica At least Once A Year, Sometimes Even 3 Times A Year. I Can’t Remember One Year He Hasn’t Went. 


I Just Felt Like I Missed Out A lot In My Family, You Know! And When I Am With That Part Of My Family And They Wonder Why I'm By Myself!  I'm Only By Myself Because I Barely Know You Them!


But Now A Year After That ( 2009) I Saw Them Again, And We Became Friends. Then I Went Back In The Summer, And Now Were Good Friends (Well Not All Or Them....Lol!)


Basically, I Am Telling You That Family Is Important, And We Need Them In Our Lives, Whether They Are Immediate Or Extended!


Thank You....And God Bless!